The Invite
Thank you for inviting me
But home is where I should be
I don’t make good company
Nerves fray around too many
It’s very kind of you to ask
But tiring wearing my mask
The grocery store is enough
Getting home and feeling rough
So thank you for the invite
I know you don’t know my plight

Ramona McCawley 2009

My Baby Girl
My Baby Girl so sweet
Sharing an ice cream treat
On a sunny day bright
With a wind blowing light
Together on the beach
With seashells in our reach
To God each day I pray
To take away the grey
No color in my world
In a ball I stay curled
Looking for you always
Loneliness fills my days
Baby Girl come home please
Where we can both be at ease
Sharing sweet hugs every day
Relaxing in the sun’s warm rays
Ramona McCawley 2009

Jessica Homecoming Queen
Homecoming Queen of our Hearts
Homecoming Queen full of Joy
Homecoming Queen always Sweet
Homecoming Queen ever True
Homecoming Queen I’m so Blue
Homecoming Queen just for you
Homecoming Queen mend our Hearts
Days without you are too hard 
 Ramona McCawley 2009

HOW CAN THIS BE
Tell me how this can be
Refusing just can’t see
Nightmare cleared from my head
With you safe in your bed
Always searching for you
In crowds without a clue
On the couch I will sleep
Teary eyes I will weep
Forever in my Heart
I am falling apart
When you are home with me
So blessed we will be

Two Hearts
Our two hearts beating as one
How now am I to go on
An emptiness inside me
Now no longer can I be
They can’t see the endless pain
Each day is a total drain
No never can I be whole
Will I be free of my hole
When you come home I’ll see light
All our days will be so bright
My Jessica we are one
With two hearts beating as one
Mona McCawley 2009

My Hole

Safe In my deep dark lonely hole

Is where I stay as I am not Whole

Here is where I wish to stay

Away from stares to keep at bay

No one can understand why

But I must hide the tears I cry

Leave me in my deep dark hole

Safe here since my life was Stole

Dealing
No Way! I can be dealing
Not when my head keeps reeling
This can’t be real how can it
So many thoughts as I just sit
Sitting and thinking so sad
Sad as I miss you so bad
Unanswered prayers too much
Prayers unanswered and such
Ramona McCawley 2009

Broken

It’s like pieces of a puzzle all scattered about

My emotions are twisted; my mind and body try to shout

For some kind of reassurance that’s what I’m trying to find cuz now that you’re gone I’m broken inside

It’s like my heart was broken in half and I’m not sure anymore if I should smile or if I should laugh

I’m broken inside to know you’re in a better place I can’t see your face

I’m broken inside to know you were taken so young and in your future there’s so much you could of become

I’m broken inside because I loved you so much and no more will I get to embrace your touch

I’m broken inside not to know when we’ll be together again

But I keep it together because one thing I do know is we’ll be together in the end 

Jessica Our Brightest Star

A life so short,
A night so long,
Only to turn back time,
To fix what went wrong.

Her presence on Earth cut too young,
God only knows her work is far from done.
She has work to do in times of fear,
She has work to do in times of fear,
She has work to do when we whisper prayers in her ear.

She’s the sparkle in an eye,
She’s the white of teeth,
She’s with us every second,
For Jessica is the air we breathe.

It’s the power of grief,
Why we don’t understand.
Misbelief, but we have to stay strong,
To help painful days move on.

So when times seem impossible and hard to bear
Just take a look in the Sky and stare,
Now give a smile, that’s our friend, our sister, our daughter,
Yes, that’s our ANGEL up there.

Jessica knows life must go on,
She’s here before us at the break of dawn,
All through the day, until late in the night,
Always in our mind, only temporarily out of sight.
Blessed with another ANGEL that we are,
Shining all night, forever she’s our brightest star.

Milt Manion
October 24, 2006

Safely Home
 
I am home in heaven, dear ones;
Oh so happy and so bright!
There is perfect joy and beauty
In this everlasting light.
 
All the pain and grief is over,
Every restless tossing passed;
I am now at peace forever,
Safely home in heaven at last.
 
Did you wonder how I so calmly
Trod the valley of the shade?
Oh, but Jesus' love illumined
Every dark and fearful glade.
 
And he came himself to meet me
In that way so hard to tread;
And with Jesus' arm to lean on,
Could I have one doubt or dread?
 
Then you must not grieve so sorely,
For I love you dearly still;
Try to look beyond earth's shadows,
Pray to trust our Father's will.
 
There is work still waiting for you,
So you must not idly stand;
Do it now, while life remains,
You shall rest in Jesus' land.
 
When that work is all completed,
He will gently call you home;
Oh, the rapture of that meeting,
Oh, the joy to see you come! 

         

My mother, Our Precious Jessica's Memaw came over to see me with tears in her eyes and told me "I believe God let us entertain a beautiful Angel for almost 20 years."

If you were fortunate to know Our Precious Jessica, you would know how true my mom's statement was.  Our Precious Jessica was always there for anybody who needed her, never putting her needs before some elses.  Our precious Jessica was so generous, kind and sharing.  Our Precious Jessica was loving the life that God wants us all to live, with goodness and forgiveness in our hearts.

"Be not forgetful to entertain strangers,
for by so doing
some have unwittingly entertained angels."
                  ~ Hebrews 13:2 ~    

      

Jessica

As fleeting as a snowflake,

As brilliant as the dawn,

An Angel walked upon this earth,

Much too soon was she gone.

As lovely as the morning dew

Glitt'ring in the light,

Sweeter than a summer breeze

Wafting in the night.

And though our hearts are shaken

Still we must remember:

Love is eternal,

An ever-glowing ember.

So though it seems she's left us

Still we have her love.

Now from on high she watches us,

Our Angel up above.

                                             Alaena 

IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY
AND MEMORIES WERE A LANE
I WOULD WALK RIGHT UP TO HEAVEN
TO BRING YOU HOME AGAIN
NO FAREWELL WORDS WERE SPOKEN
NO TIME TO SAY GOODBYE
YOU WERE GONE BEFORE I KNEW IT
AND ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY
MY HEART STILL ACHES WITH SADNESS
AND SECRET TEARS STILL FLOW
WHAT IT MEANT TO LOSE YOU
NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW"

Anonymous